making decisions. I do. I always worry about every little thing about the decisions. Even as easy as where to go out to eat. If I choose Subway will that be too cheap or would the person I'm with think that I think they are fat. If I don't choose Subway will that person think I'm fat? If I go to a sit down restaurant will it cost too much. If I'm with a friend will Brent be mad that I'm spending too much money. Will the customer service be OK?
Well as you can see I can easily drive myself crazy. Recently I have run into that time in my life when I need to make one of those BIG decisions. I am currently enrolled in a Masters program to major in Adult Education. I would like to use this degree to teach in a small community college away from 5th graders and principals. Well I found out that my degree program was meant more for business trainers and had little to do with community colleges. If I wanted to teach at a CC then I would have to be specialized in what I am wanting to teach...like math or sociology or whatever.
My problem is that I don't want to teach one specific thing....I just want to teach without all the drama and pressure and ridiculous responsibilities. So I'm stuck with a decision. Do I continue with the the degree program in hopes that a CC will just let me teach instead of being specilized, or do I change majors all together and waste all that money I've already put into the degree? And if I change degrees then what would I change to? I'm not good at anything except teaching.
Anyhow...on to the point of this blog. So through all this I've been going crazy...litterally. I am worried about the future, worried about the economy getting worse and not getting a job, worried about money and worried about making this important decision. But my wonderful husband has been nothing but sensitive to my needs and worries. He is completly supportive and great.
Yesterday, at the peak of my stress, Brent left a letter on my car explaining that he supports any decision I make and that he just wants me to be happy...and then he said the sweetest thing. In the letter he said "I know you don't want to be anything more than a mom and that's probably why this decision is so hard for you. But one day you will be the happiest mom in the world and this decision will seem silly."
It's so true....All I want to be when I grow up is a mom. So I've decided to stick with my degree and one day hope that I'll get a job with it.
I absolutly love my husband for understanding me and my needs. Brent is the best man EVER. I cannot believe that the Lord led me to such a wonderful man. I don't deserve him.
That is so sweet! You've got a keeper! Good luck with finishing the program and you are in our prayers that your dream of being a mom is not too far away! :)
ReplyDeletethat is sweet. how nice, plus he's right. good luck in the program, and there may be something you enjoy doing with it when you are done; maybe teaching in a business setting to employees of a big company? anyway, it will all work out. +prayers are a great tool. sometimes slow, but wonkerful!
ReplyDeleteTimi, you'll be a great mom. It's hard to be patient for the things that our hearts want, isn't it? I don't know Brett, but he sounds great, and I'm so happy you found him. Regarding your program, you should call around to a few cc's that you might like to teach at and talk to them about the teaching possibilities with such a degree. Might find some useful info. I'll keep you in my prayers as well!
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