Well as most of you may know, I've had a weight issue for most of my adult life. Actually that is a lie...I've had a weight problem for ALLL of my adult life. I started gaining weight as soon as I moved out of my parents house. And ever since I've gotten married, I've gained 40 pounds. That's more than 10 pounds a year. And it doesn't seem to be getting any better. In fact I can see it getting worse.
Recently I have been thinking of my most beautiful daughter. Many, many people have told me just how beautiful she is. In fact one friend even told me to enter her into a few contests. I just can't help but think that if Brent and I continue to eat like we do, beautiful Madisen will have no choice but to eat the same. I do not want Madisen to have the same weight issues that her parents have. I would just die to see her struggle with this aweful demon.
So I'm DETERMINED to change. But somehow I just don't. You would be shocked to know about what I've been eating in the past 2 weeks. I've started a diet just about every day. I've cried about it and talked to just about everyone I know. I have the motivation...I just need the drive.
So today...I joined weight watchers. I have NOOOO expectations of this. In fact I kind of think that I might just quit within the first few weeks. But I HAVE to start somewhere. At the meeting tonight, they said that on average it takes someone 7 times to become successful with weight watchers. So I'm taking the first step. My goal is small and simple...to sign up. So I did it!! I actually accomplished my goal. I can't do the big goals anymore. So I'm going to do small ones on a daily basis. I can't start the whole points system yet and I can't write it all down or count it all out. If I do, then I'll end up failing. So I'm just learning about the program.
I'm not really sure what else to do. I really don't want weight loss surgery. Needles and staples and alternating my stomache is just not something I'm interested in doing.
Silly Brent gave me a little more motivation today...He told me that he doesn't think I can lose the weight. I guess I'll have to show him. It might take me 2 years...but I'm going to show him and my daughter that it is possible. I have to!!!! Wish me luck.
Timille, you can do it! Just believe in yourself and prove your "demons" wrong. It's not easy, but the human body is an amazing thing, and it can do amazing things if you train it to. Best of luck!!
ReplyDeleteYou can totally do it & Weight Watchers (so I've heard) is the best program to do it on! We'll be cheering you on... post on here your updates & you'll have a whole bunch of cheerleaders.
ReplyDeleteOh & you really need to post more pics of that BEAUTIFUL baby on here too!